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Wednesday, April 30, 2025

The Sign

Convenient.


I'm sitting here, crying silently... knowing that not very many people would care... praying that God lets me die tonight... thinking about my brand new bottle of a medication that would permanently drown out the pain... Then my Facebook scrolling shows me a video with the caption, "Here's your sign."

I see all these things on the news of people dying in wrecks or freak accidents, and my only thought is "Why am I never that lucky? When is my turn?"

The thing is, I'm crap. Not my life... me. I can't win. I lower myself to make others feel better about themselves, and everything is fine. I finally put my foot down and refuse to hide my intelligence, suddenly I'm a cocky know-it-all. I bow down to my abusive family members, giving more than I have in an effort to keep the peace, and all is well. I put up boundaries, and I'm a horrible person who is just looking for the negative. 

I'm tired of this. I have given all I have. I have no more.





Save me.